Due Date

Well, today is the day!  It is January 17th and this is the “due date” for baby #2.  I was so sure this one was going to be early – what do I know?  Why is it so hard to be patient?  Why does it seem even harder to be patient when it comes to things that I have no control over.  I have no idea when this baby is going to come and that drives me crazy!  I want to know, but I realize that there is no possible way for me to figure it out.  It is one of those things that only God knows and for some reason that bugs me – why?

I was thinking last night that in some ways waiting for this baby to come could be compared to waiting for Jesus to return.  It too is one of those things that only God knows and I have no idea what the year, day or hour will be.  The thing I have been questioning is why the waiting for Him doesn’t consume me like waiting for this child?  Why doesn’t it bother me as much not to know when He’ll return.  I have no control over it and no way to figure it out, but it still doesn’t drive me crazy like waiting for this baby.  Is it not as important?  Do I doubt that it will really happen?  Is it too scary or unimaginable to think about?  Do I not care about His return?  Maybe I just believe that it won’t happen in my lifetime.  The thing that’s crazy is that He could come before this baby does and that I just can’t wrap my brain around.

Anyway, just some babble and questions that have been on my mind.  Maybe tonight if I think more about His return and less about this baby coming I’ll get some sleep – AND – the baby will come!